Stuck

(does my loyalty matter?)
when i stay,
for nothing is said,
but falling
one-sided into an abyss.
this
never-ending torture,
staying in one place.
taking up space.
nothing i do matters.
and what moving forward
would do,
would you?
any sign, any word.
(a beautiful word)
any encouragement
would bring peace to this
mind
of mine.