Weep-Weary Silence (of Bad Poetry)

I

I feel the world cracking around my heart
this plane I do not touch
this world I do not release.
it leaks
like blood from a paper cut
like water from my eyes
a dam waiting to burst,
a soul crushing pain.. this heart.

II

I would tell you your hands
are the creation of universes
and words..
words that universes are created from.
I would tell you I loved you
if I knew, I can not say..
I know you not but my heart sees you
and has flown
only to return
a thought of you like the olive branch;
A shore of meaning only it knows.

peace.
at rest.
content.
joy.

III

My head runs to thoughts.
be kind.
be quiet.
say nothing.
do not breathe
do not believe.
do not know.
do not move.. or say or share.
do nothing.
do not lose.
do not gain.
do not live.
do not betray your heart.

(oh but these words.. once committed but not spoken)
do not exist.

IV

My heart runs like an engine..
a fast moving train ahead of thought.
love. love. love. LOVE!
love is the every only god..
be not afraid.
do.
know.
feel!
speak.
share.
shout!
dance!
live!
be kind.
be honest.
be true.
be giving.
be joyful.
be glad of this.
(whatever this is.. thislove! thisfriendship! THIS! Happiness!)
be not afraid.
love. always love.


V

Above all else.. love.
and when my head catches up
with my heart.
oh the dam burst!
oh the weeping!
the despair.
oh love that can not be shouted.
can not be shared.
can not be given but quietly.
through silent meditation and hope.
through kind thoughts
and wishes.
through silent energy
poured forth in waves of muse..
through skies of blue
and teary, gray-clouded,
splattering thunder-rattling rain!
restless night wandering..
floor-pacing contemplating
friendship hoping, helpful wanting to be
of service to you.
a cup, a hand, a foot.. a friend.
a heart on mend.